First, I'm happy, then I become really really happy, then I become neutral, and theeen a little bit hyper, and suddenly I become all sad and depressed :(

I'm not sure what to do or what to feel anymore, after all that happened. Everything just feels so surreal to me. It's like I was just dreaming the whole time. It's either that or everything was just a big fat lie. I'm sick and tired of people lying to me just to make me feel better. And you know what's worse? Pretending that you care. Yeeeeah, I used to believe you a loooot. It sucks though. It seems that I just made a fool out of myself for that. But yeah, I don't care. I could keep believing you as long as it makes me happy even though you'll just make me look stupid.

"All the pain will be worth it in the end"

that line never failed to fail me :))
at least 3 times I think. yon. haha


anyway I'll just stay here. Waiting. for. a miracle :D